Tuesday 23 February 2016

Day ends and begins with hope again

February 23, 2016 (1:31am)

Checking over my phone to see if you are online or still studying , when this sudden unusual flickering  started happening in my mind, something which was not allowing me to sleep over nights. You must be asleep now & i don't wanna disturb you in your sleep because i can see how much efforts you are giving to qualify the exams and i don't want to be a reason to pull you back. I have always given you the utmost priority and right now when you are standing at the verge of starting your fresh career, i wont put my nose in between.
The real reason of writing this to you is may be i am missing you. It not may be, its actually i am missing you. Days are passing by, night are just hunting me down, and still everyday i wake with just one hope that you would give me a call back when you are out of your working schedule. Dont worry i really do understand starting a fresh career and how stressed days you must be seeing, so truly its fine from your end if you are not getting time. Now a days i spent time watching those old pictures and those awsum videos which we made for eachother on our birthdays. Seriously your videos were much better than mine.
I am feeling scared Priya. I am afraid if i will lose you. I dont have enough of smile left inside me , the reason to make your smile the best one or the reason for me to smile back at you when i see you again. You know it already, you are my better half but i dont know why i am feeling an ache along the left side of the body. This pain persists entire day long and i am afraid if it stays all my life. I am scared of these ghosts haunting me along the night , i waana see you around, please come to me and hug me tight like the way you had always grabbed me and never let me go.
Every day i wake up, start the day with a hope that may be today i could see you or talk to you, ask you how your day was and stand beside you and give you a small hug or kiss your forehead. The day passes by and slowly the expectation of feeling your presence kills me and when the night strikes at it last moment to take a last breath, i feel like may be this is where i will end myself,. But suddenly the next morning my eyes open with a hope that may be today my Priya will come back to me smiling and running to me and finally giving me a tight hug. I miss you dear love, dear friend, you were the only one i will ever have.
Good night angel.......   

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